New Year is only 2 days away and everyone around me is excitedly planning what party dress to wear for their NYE celebrations. I on the other hand wish that it was all over and I no longer have to deal with the pressure of how I’m going to spend the “big night”.
I hate NYE! I know that it’s a big call and you probably think I’m over reacting, but I really don’t like it! I find it depressing and always a big let down. I wish I wasn’t such a party pooper but I’ve decided to acknowledge it and live my truth.
I find NYE challenging. NYE parties are fill of couples celebrating the year that’s been intermingled with the odd single person desperately working out how to make sure they don’t get stuck next to Trevor the Tragic at the strike of midnight. I know I sound like a bitter and twisted old maid, and believe me when I say I would rather not feel like this but this is my reality right now.
I find this time of year extremely challenging. I feel alone and lonely. I think it’s normal and I know that I’m not alone but I think as independent single woman we’re scared and embarrassed to show our vulnerabilities and to admit that sometimes we crave companionship, intimacy and ultimately love. I believe many of us think we need to put on a brave face, fabulous dress and stunning heels and strut our stuff!
Well this year I’m not going to do it! This NYE I choose not to play the role of favourite party girl. This year I’m going to do NYE differently. No fancy party or fantastic cocktails. This year I feel empowered to shake off the expectations of society (and some of my friends) and I choose to spend the night hanging out with my little one and appreciate the view from his innocent eyes.
If you too feel disheartened this NYE and don’t feel like putting on a brave face, I invite you (or if you need it, I give you permission) to acknowledge your feelings and find your own special way to celebrate.
I would love to hear your thoughts on getting through NYE and other holidays as a single mum.
Rebecca x
You are so right about New Year’s celebrations….I have been an emotional train wreck this holiday season.
For me, this isn’t an opportunity to look to the year ahead. Instead it serves as a reflection of the past in a negative & sad way.
While I had alot of positives this past year, it hard to focus on those things because of the sadness that I feel….feeling sad that I somehow left my little girl down.
So when I get home from work tomorrow night, I won’t ring in the New Year but will crawl in bed and wait for the next day to arrive. ‘Cus all we can do is take it one day at a time!
Happy New Year!
F***K NYE!!!! I’m over it too! If i could i would sleep all the way through the 31st and magically wake up on the 1st ready to tackle the new year and not reminisce or even think of the trials and tribulations of the year gone. Yes, there have been lots of great parts of 2009 but it’s been hard!
Happy 2010!
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